Do You Ever Feel Like  Fraud?

Do You Ever Feel Like Fraud?

Last week I spent three days at the most amazing event I have ever attended. And I was a speaker. The three days were filled with fun, deep bonding, belly dancing, meditations, kick ass coaching and strategies, breakthroughs, drum circles, Access Consciousness tools and so much love. My heart has grown and, even though I am on a high, I miss that space. So why do I feel Like a fraud? Well, I don’t really. Not to you. I feel as if I have been defrauding myself with a big lie that I released at the event. For a long time I was a little mouse. HATED speaking in front of groups. I would get exhausted and a headache after a full day at an event and spending so much time around people. I even got up on the stage on Day 1 and announced that I am shy and an introvert. What a load of bullcrap. I was afraid. Afraid of being visible. Afraid of speaking my truth. Afraid of not being enough. Afraid of Success. Hiding behind my computer where it feels safe to be visible. I know that is counter intuitive for some of you but that’s my truth. But something shifted. It started when I had my Bars run. I felt the shift. But it was the wholeness of this amazing event that contributed. As I had my Bars run, Angella Johnson, was speaking about using the clearing statement to release different things. And I decided to release the story that I am shy and an introvert. I am not suggesting I will never need...
Lilith and Your Inner Wild Woman

Lilith and Your Inner Wild Woman

In a Mentoring Circle I am a member of I was invited to make a Community SoulCollage© to help me to identify MY inner wild woman. My Lilith. She has been wanting to be heard more and more. I was also asked who I admire so I could begin to articulate what being a wild woman is for me. I’m not big into hero worship so couldn’t immediately name a person. But then I thought about it - a lot. Admire doesn’t have to mean love every part of them. Lilith in your chart represents your inner wild woman and in MY chart she is right next to (conjunct) my natal Gemini Moon. In the sign of the voice, the writer, the teacher. And in the house system I use most commonly, Porphry, she is in the Fifth house of children, the inner child, joy, drama and creativity.  You will see why this is important as you read on. For the purposes of this I am using Black Moon Lilith, the most commonly used Lilith in Astrology. Though I am exploring the other Liliths. Right now though it is Black Moon Lilith that is speaking to me. Lilith, in Hebrew tradition, was the first wife of Adam, who left Eden because she refused to lie under Adam. There is a lot more to the myth, of course, and you can read more about her in various places but I give you one example from ‘Where Does the Legend of Lilith Come From?’. And to I give you this quote from Living Lilith by M.Kelly Hunter. Lilith spoke to her through...