How I Have Been Throwing Away My Money For TWENTY Years!!!!

How I Have Been Throwing Away My Money For TWENTY Years!!!!

Have you ever had one of those lightbulb moments that blow you away? The other day, I literally threw money in the trash. Literally. I bought a couple of items at my j.o.b. and, as I threw the trash in the dumpster on my way home, I inadvertently threw the bag with the items in the trash too. And I didn’t realize until too late. The value wasn’t high but the value of the lesson that this led to? Priceless! I’m in a Money Club and, on a call the following morning, I told this story and BING!!! You can’t take it with you.  Ever since my Dad died at 61 in 1997 after a life of investing and saving and a year after retirement, we (my birth family) all said; ‘you can’t take it with you’. Or maybe that was just my Mum and I. Whatever, that’s the voice in my head since his death. You can’t take it with you. In other words, spend it all, don’t save, don’t invest, don’t HAVE money. Just let it run right through your fingers. And I’ve done a very good job of that. We always have enough but never more than enough. It’s always ‘by the skin of our teeth’. Juggling. Robbing Peter to pay Paul. Don’t get me wrong. I am grateful. I am wealthy compared to many. And that has always stopped me from looking at what’s really going on. The guilt of having more than enough, more than those that have nothing. It’s true, I can’t take money with me to the other side. However, I can leave a...
A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To Claiming Freedom.

A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To Claiming Freedom.

I’m a Freedom Guide There, I said it out loud. I help women claim their freedom. Freedom to BE. Freedom to speak their TRUTH. Freedom to transition into a life they LOVE. Freedom to be WARRIORS for themselves. Freedom to live a multi-colored, fantastic and magical life. Freedom to embrace CHANGE.  Freedom to CREATE a COURAGEOUS life! So what’s the funny thing? Back in 2010 I was coaching a Social Media Marketing franchise and I won a coaching session with a lovely woman called Britt Michaelian, who is no longer coaching. Through her process she saw me as the Freedom Coach. I never claimed it. I won’t go into why. It doesn’t matter. All roads lead to Rome! What do I mean by that? I mean that all of our experiences mean something. We might not know what or why at the time. So why claim it NOW? Because I’m ready. But the funny part is how I came back to it. I was on a call for a group I am a member of and the facilitator had us do an exercise that ultimately led us to pick a word or phrase from a ton that we wrote out. And what jumped out for me? You guessed it. Freedom Guide. I laughed out loud and thanked my Guides and the Universe for waking me up to what I am. Freedom is one of my Core Values. Always has been and always will be. Freedom can mean many different things to many different people but for me it means the freedom to be fully me, to speak my truth and...
The Shadow of Needy

The Shadow of Needy

The Shadow of Need It’s time to declare that I am needy. All my life I have attracted needy people in my life because it took me a while to acknowledge that I am needy too. I won’t go into my history because my soul chose this life. It chose the time, date and place of birth and the family I was born into. My soul chose to be born with Capricorn rising and Saturn, the ruler of Capricorn, conjunct making me a double Capricorn rising. Capricorn rising are seen as reserved, a little stand offish, competent and diligent. As children they are seen as ‘the responsible one’. And that was me. Oldest child with three younger brothers. Babysitting from a very young age. Always worked HARD from a very young age. Always felt responsible. All my life I have struggled with the other side of this. Fear that I am not enough. Which, is of course, complete BS, we are all enough. This caused me to try to prove that I was so very powerful and strong ALL THE TIME! I put up walls with friendships because I feared that if I dropped the walls and showed vulnerability and neediness that I would be rejected. And I rejected those friendships that I saw as too needy. I fear being seen as weak. I fear that I am not enough. Because of this fear I do weird things like showing up at my networking group without business cards or a clear need to ask the group for. I come across as ‘I am a better than you’. Aloof and distant...
Another Big Leap

Another Big Leap

I have been thinking about this post for a while. Quite a long while actually. And then I read ‘My Inner Dilemma’ by Dena Patrick and also this newsletter written by my good friend Lisa Wechtenhiser from Practically Intuitive. And I realized, it’s time to get things out of my head and onto paper, virtually. I have always had activist tendencies. As a teen I lived in Northern Ireland during ‘the troubles’ and could see the Catholics point of view against the British Colonists of which I was one (not that I supported any of the violence - just the political views). I would argue their case at the dinner table much to my family’s consternation. Later, as a teen I marched to Hyde Park to protest with the Anti Nazi League. Until recently I have mainly been an armchair activist  followed by being a Facebook activist. And my physical activism faded away for many years as I lost myself in motherhood and moving around the world with my family. I felt I had to ‘tame it’ as an example to my daughter’s. How wrong could I have been. They love seeing me trying to save the world.  When we ended up in Utah in 2008, or rather when I was dragged kicking and screaming from Australia to Utah, I found myself taking and then coaching a Social Media Marketing course with my first ever Mentor. This triggered an intense period of personal and spiritual development, which has really not stopped since! All this, incidentally, happened at the time of my Chiron return, one of THE most painful and challenging but...
Do You Ever Feel Like  Fraud?

Do You Ever Feel Like Fraud?

Last week I spent three days at the most amazing event I have ever attended. And I was a speaker. The three days were filled with fun, deep bonding, belly dancing, meditations, kick ass coaching and strategies, breakthroughs, drum circles, Access Consciousness tools and so much love. My heart has grown and, even though I am on a high, I miss that space. So why do I feel Like a fraud? Well, I don’t really. Not to you. I feel as if I have been defrauding myself with a big lie that I released at the event. For a long time I was a little mouse. HATED speaking in front of groups. I would get exhausted and a headache after a full day at an event and spending so much time around people. I even got up on the stage on Day 1 and announced that I am shy and an introvert. What a load of bullcrap. I was afraid. Afraid of being visible. Afraid of speaking my truth. Afraid of not being enough. Afraid of Success. Hiding behind my computer where it feels safe to be visible. I know that is counter intuitive for some of you but that’s my truth. But something shifted. It started when I had my Bars run. I felt the shift. But it was the wholeness of this amazing event that contributed. As I had my Bars run, Angella Johnson, was speaking about using the clearing statement to release different things. And I decided to release the story that I am shy and an introvert. I am not suggesting I will never need...
“I Have A Quick Question………”

“I Have A Quick Question………”

Well there you have it. The New Moon this morning at 0 deg Sagittarius was conjunct my Mercury exactly and I get the urge to blog for the first time in a long time. Mercury being the planet of communication and teaching. And in Sagittarius which makes it all about truth! And in my eleventh house of groups and causes. I expect this urge to grow even more as Saturn enters my eleventh house also on November 30 and then again when the Lord of Karma leaves Scorpio, where he has been teaching us many many inner lessons since October 2012, and enters Sagittarius on December 23. Also conjoining my Mercury! So what, am I drawn to write? Well it’s not exactly astrology per se. It’s about my work as an astrologer. It’s those quick questions. The ones that say ‘can you explain what so and so in my chart means’ or ‘I am having a hard time, can you take a quick look’ (they are the hardest!) They come by private message on Facebook and Twitter mainly. Occasionally by email. And even by Google Hangout messages. After all this time working online I still feel a constriction in my throat when these messages arrive. The old fears of saying no. I have a nice reply prepared now and do use it. But I STILL feel bad as I hit send. Will they hate me? Will they never come back for a reading? All false fears of course. But here’s why I choose to answer none of these questions. If I answer one person I feel I have to answer other...
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